Memories...

    It's winter and it's so cold. I miss to summer. Hot days and sleeping on balcony :) I remember like with my friends we had a date there and it was so "romantic"! :) We ate spinach tart, drunk wine and listened to music. I can only recall those moments, I miss them so much! Now it's cold, and snow outside the window. I'm sitting on my bad with cup of hot tea and wish it could be the summer... I miss when with my friends we were going somewhere, just to take some photos and have fun together! :) 
    This time it's so depressing for me. I don't know why. I still meet with my friends at university and in other places, but I think it's not the same. Sitting at my flat is not good, especially there is nobody to talk with. I mean I have roommates but I can't just talk to them when I feel bed. I need my best best friend. To talk about all and nothing, to make some crazy things and than regret it :) This is what I want now. Live my life! But... at university the exams have started and all I can do now is study, study and study, no fun, just study.

    Enjoy the photos :)

Promises....

  How many times somebody told you words "I will never leave you"? Few months ago one person told me that and few days ago left me. It's hard to not thinking about him, it's really hard...  But this is the live... Full of disappointments, broken hearts, mistakes... Everyone learns from their mistakes who to trust, who not, what to do and what not... This is the life. It's not easy. 
  Sometimes I wish I could tie somebody up in my shoes, make somebody feel like me... People around me are sooo happy, the have what they want, they go where they want, have boys/girls who they want.
  But it's New Year soon, a new beginning, we can start new life if you only want. I made a new list of the provisions, even though I have not completed the last one. I hope next year will be better for me :)
Do you have any advices for me?

Christmas time is coming...

  Have you ever dreamed about Christmas without your family and friends? I have, this year. I wanted to go somewhere I don't know, where is no people around, just like in "holiday" movie. I think everybody needs sometimes to be alone for a while. Don't know why at Christmas, but I wish I could go somewhere away from here. If i could't make it happen this year maybe next I'll try. New Year's Eve I'm spending at home with some good movie and bottle of wine. But before I'll feel the spirit of Christmas i have to stay at University until 21st December. Before I'll get home waiting for my five-hour train journey, probably with no seats. It's going to be amazing...
  Week ago came to Poland my best friend. Last time I saw him on May. He lives in UK for a year now. I missed him so much. He's leaving on Tuesday. I'm so sad about it but he has to go. We spent every single day together, shopping, talking, cooking and partying. We had so much to tell about our lifes. He invited me to come to his place on winter holidays, and on February I'm going to UK. It was so much fun to spend the time together. 
  Now I am thinking of Christmas with my family in my hometown away from University and study. I need this break. And when New Year comes I think I'll be a better person.


P.S Maybe I should start to add some photos of me and my friends?

Finally back!

Hey Guys! I'm so sorry for not writing such a long time. I have my computer back! its so good feeling, but its only good thing what happened to me last times. 
It's so hard be happy when people who you dont know tell you that you don't suppost to be living because of your look. This is so unfair, why people say that? I didn't do anything wrong. And all I heard is that I'm such a bed person, why? Life it's to hard for me. I try to be me, not pretending anybody, do not argue with anybody and all I get is so many bad words! Sometimes I think it would be better not to be born. I'm not this happy and cheesing girl. Now I'm all the time sad and crying and I don't want to be any more. I want to be this happy girl again! Please tell me that somewhere in the world there are people who want to have me....

Broken computer

Since last week, I don't have a computer... Tha's why I wasn't writing nothing new. So I have to write everuthing now :) My roommate let me to use her computer if I want so I have connection with the world :) Last night I was with my friends in a music club and we party all night long :) It was amazing! So many new people, good music and friends - that's what makes me happy :) On Monday my friend is making a Halloween party and I have to dress up, but I don't know what I can wear... I'm thinking about it all the time. So my soscial life is quite good :)
Now university ;) so, what can I tell? Too much study. All these physics and maths stuff make me so tired, that ater my lessons all I want to my bad :)
I didn't have time for "sending" my message in the bottle, but I will do it the sooner I can :) Also I hope to get some photos from Halloween :) Question for you ... Who you want to be on Halloween party? :)

Message in the bottle....

       I've always dreamed of writing a letter, put it into a bottle and throw it to the sea. In our times people don't write a leters, now every body use phones or emails or messangers any way some quicker way to conntact with others. I've always wanted to write one, I don't know who can be that I'm writing to but I think I'll do it :) Unfortunately, I live far from the sea. To be honest I was never at the seaside. That's why I decided to thow my letter in to the river :) I have so many question... "Does someone find my letter?", "What I'm going to write in this?", "Is there some message that I want to share with some stranger, who will find it?".... So many unknowns.... But I've been waiting for all to long. I decided to do what I want and live my life! :) And since this year I'm going to do all that things I've always wanted! :) (Hope I'm gonna make it) I know, there are so many people who always wanted to do something, but they didn't have enough courage, I was one of them. Now, I think, I'm stronger to do some of them. I'm not the same Anna I was, I've never liked myself like my friends do. But I think it's time for change something, I can't always be in the same point. Live is moving on, so do we.