Can't stand it anymore...

Problems? Who doesn't have them? But in my situation I think that what I have is out of limit. I can't stand it any more. It's too much for me. I don't know what to do. Nobody next to me to help, I'm alone with everything right now. Yesterday I was at my new flat and everuthing will be ok but of course my family says no. I don't care because I pay for it with my money and I like it. My family don't give support I need in my life, everuthing I have to do it on my own, this is too much for me, I don't know life yet. There is one thing that I hear everyday, that I'm hopeless, so it must be true. I want to have somebody in my family to talk with, but even my mum tells me that I can't do anything. This is not helping at all. I'm tired of my life, sometimes I wish I could live somewhere else, to not hear all this people telling me how bad I am. This is killing me. I think I need a rest from my life and family, but who can give me? I want to change something in my hopeless life, but I need a chance, which nobody wants to give me. I don't feel anything, even that I'm alive. I don't care about anything. Please somebody change that!

Miles to go, Before I Sleep....

There is so many places go go, but everything is against me, even the weather. Everytime I deciced to go somewhere it ends at home. I somebody won't "kick my ass" I won't do anything. I'm like that, I planned a lot, but I can't end what I started. Holidays are slowly ending and only place I was it was my friend's home. That's all. I want to go somewhere! Do something! I don't want to be bored anymore. But there's nobody next to me. Everyone has own plan. Everyone knows how to spend free time - I don't. I'm sitting alone at my home, when the rain is outside the window, and think "What to do now? still sit here or do something?". Pobably I'll pick the second and I'll stay. The truth is that I don't have a lot opportunities to go somwhere and see something. This year was my first trip abroad, I was in England, but that's all... I'm hopeless, I know... I hope your holidays are more exciting :) I know I promised one girl I'll every day say to myself "You are amazing! You can do everything you want", but for now, it's to much for me...

Amazing week!

Last week I was at my friend's home about 250 km away from my. It was so much fun! We were swimming, walking, visiting and having fun. I was there for 6 days, I wish I could stay more :) I was great time. We cooked together and made drinks (acctually more drinks than food lmao ;) ) We were at swimming pool in nearby village. I want to go back there. :) I home my friend will invite me one more time, but now I'm waiting for her in my home ;) I hope that wasnt my only trip this holiday :)

Bad day ....

Sometimes people have bad days. This is one of mine. I hate that. I feel terrible, like I'm not important to anybody. And I wonder why everybody keep telling me what to do... I don't know, nobody is helping me, I'm alone with everything... But they say "do what you want to do in your life...." This is the worst what they could say. I don't know what I want... I mean  I want to do something in my life, make my dreams come true... But when everybody tells you that you're nothing you can't stand it any more and give up... If you don't have the look, family who supports you, friends  you have nothing... I'm alone with everything I want to do with my life... I don't have opportunity to do what I want, don't have the look what is expected... But when somebody pretty/good-looking, with amazing voice and everything  is telling that anything can happen, it's not right... how can somebody like me make something big, how? tell me, I don't know...

BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday was my 20th birthday. I got many wishes! ? Thank you all! :) I was on small birthday party at my friend's home.. We were drinking absinth and eating chocolate with "something" :D
 But today I was on my University to  apply one more time for my direction. The journey was long and now I'm exhausted. I dream about my bed.
 Next week I'm going to my friend. Hope the weather will be nice and we have an amazing time together ;)
Now I'm going to sleep ;) Enjoy your evening! ;) Anna...

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Rainy week...

It's been a rainy week.. No place to go... Just sitting at home and watching movies. But I wasn't bored, because my friend came. We were listening to music, cooking and baking. When the weather was better we went to the city center for a shopping ;) Of course I bought a lot of nice clothes. But one sunny day and than two rainy. It wasn't a nice week. There is nothing much to write about... Maybe next week will be more exciting :) Anna...